30 December, 2012

As the Holidays draw to a close I thought I would share some of the Pics of our 2012 Holidays:

The city tree

Our Festive doggy
Our Colour change tree

All of us 

Hope you all had a Happy Christmas

29 December, 2012

A Poem..

The beginning of something new
The end of something true,
Excitement in the mind replete,
A new path to complete.

Some things must come to end
And always we must make amends.
Moving on in wary hope,
A new thing now with which to cope.

Wondering at how it works,
Haven’t figured out the quirks.
Lots to learn, and lots to give,
Starting now, this life to live

So much gone by overlooked
A sacrifice for passage booked.
The fast lane train, ahead is black
Now or never, not looking back.

Searching frantically for unlocked doors
Open one and close ten more,
Choosing right, the secret here
Just go with it, forget the fear.

So much opportunity,
So much room to spread my wings,
Close my eyes, just listening
To the sound of my new beginning

Super Sarcastic Secret Lasagna Recipe

Preheat oven to 350.

Sauce the bottom of a lasagna pan (which sauce is up to you, how much is up to you)
Add some shredded cheese (6 Italian cheese or Mozzarella, how much is up to you) add some garlic salt and onion powder and set aside.

Cook Lasagna noodles as per directions on the box, when cooked place in colander and rinse with cool water (this avoids sticking but more important it avoids burning your fingers)

If you  do low carbs replace the noodles with either zucchini or eggplant.

Mix ricotta cheese about 2 large tubs or more(How much is up to you) and 2 or more eggs (more cheese means more eggs)  add 6 Italian cheese or Mozzarella (How much is up to you)  Make sure eggs have mixed well.

Place one layer of noodles in pan (how many is up to you)  

Now take some chicken breasts (how many is up to you) grind them up and add salt pepper and Italian bread crumbs (how much is up to you)  and loads of garlic! Mix well.

If you don't eat meat replace it with tofu.

Layer the mixture over the noodles(add as little or as much as you want) 
Dollop some sauce over the chicken,add another layer of  noodles.

Add  layer of the ricotta cheese mix, and top with noodles.

Keep Alternating layers until there is no more room and the pan is near overflowing.

Top off with sauce and mozzarella and shredded cheddar(or Swiss or any cheese you like it's up to you), place in oven and cook for 45 minutes or until the cheese has melted and become gooey and slightly brown at the edges.

Eat up...

28 December, 2012

Observations of Disney World Part 2

Having made that list and checked it thrice, you check the web and what to your wondering eyes should appear but MORE choices for you!

Accommodations, these are most important, will you stay on or off grounds?
The best way to enjoy  Disney World (IMHO) is to stay on grounds, as there is free transport to all the Disney attractions, they also offer some fun activities, and when traveling with kiddies (be they 2 or 22) it's always nice to have diversions.

Keep in mind that exhaustion can set in relatively quickly after a day of walking around any of the parks and having the luxury of letting someone else do the driving is wonderful, and when you are on grounds most hotels are less than 10-15 minuets ride.

Again choosing a hotel depends upon your finances.  

The least expensive way I have found to enjoy  Walt Disney World Resort has been via a package deal though Disney. Going via their website allows you to compare prices of hotels, and all the services and perks for your package.

The Magic your Way is GREAT!

Package deals offer various dinning and ticket opptions (ie park hopper passes, park hopper with water parks (and DisneyQuest)   Quick service Meals,  Full Dinning ect)

The choice is yours, keep in mind while in the long it is less expensive, in the short run YIKES!  But the good thing is you can pay off the vacation when you book through Disney, as long as you are paid up 30 days in advance AND you also have the option of checking into your hotel 10 days before, so that when you arrive your room is ready!

Check out  the website @ disneyparks.disney.go.com

The site is great for all Disney Vacation needs, from the planning to the reservations, you can even check out the restaurants before you go, make dinning reservations and get the latest park news! (WOW I sound like an advert, I'm not)

If you chose to stay on grounds, the hotels are broken down by price, and by what park they are near:

Example : The Grand Floridan , Polynesian and Contemporary and Fort Wilderness are Classified as "Magic Kingdom" Resorts as this is the park that is nearest (either by Monorail or boat or even walking!)

Among my favourite Disney Hotels are : 
The Contemporary: $$$$$
 I love this A-frame Monorail house (as I used to call it) I have stayed here twice, I regret not taking an upgrade to the tower when I had the chance, if you can stay HERE (again finance permitting) The views are spectacular, especially of The Magic Kingdom! (and it's just 1 Monorail stop away, or a short walk.  

Port Orleans: $$$$
It has that New Orleans feel to it, and my stay here was quite enjoyable

Fort Wilderness: $$$

I have yet to stay here but I have visited the camp grounds on many occasions and this is an amazing place, with three restaurants (The Hoop-De-Doo Review and Mickey's Back Yard BBQ being the "Show" restaurants as it were).  You can rent cabins that will fit the entire family (which is a more costly option) or for less you can reserve a camp site. There is plenty to see and do here for children of all ages.

The All Start Resorts: (Movies, Sports, Music) $$

Take your pick of a theme here,I have stayed at all three! These are some of the most fun resorts, with lots to do for the kids,  the specially themed heated pools are fantastic! Down side here is that these hotels tens to be loud, as it seems to be the preferred hotels for high school trips, and families with screaming uh I mean small children.

The Pop Century:$$
 This is my all time favourite, I stayed here three times, each decade has it's own theme from the buildings to the pools. Again lots to see and do for people of all ages, and it is now connected via car park and bridge (that you walk over) to the new Art of Animation (which I have explored but not stayed at.) looks amazing, my only complaint is with so many wonderful movies to chose from why just the few they chose. (The Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, Cars, and The Lion King) Hopefully they will add more, personally I would love to see a Jungle Book, Beauty and the Beast, or even a Robin Hood theme.

Though most hotels have room service, the  All Star Resorts, Pop Century and Art of Animation offer Pizza Delivery (AWESOME Pizza in my Opinion (there are other items on the menu as well)) As with anything Disney there is a price..

If you chose to stay off grounds there are several hotels that offer transport to the parks, not sure if they offer Downtown Disney (A shopaholics paradise!). 

International Drive is a good place to look for hotels, they have reasonable rates and some overpriced, but it is worth the look as they are fairly close as well.  There are two on the property that are not Disney Owned. The Swan & Dolphin, both are nice and a little on the pricey side.

Now you must decide on mode of transport, obviously for far off visitors it's a plane choice, for those not so far off perhaps a train, for for those even closer ROAD TRIP!

More to come:

Super-sweet girl fed the homeless on Xmas as tribute to dead dad

Super-sweet girl fed the homeless on Xmas as tribute to dead dad

The parents did something right here, if only more parents could teach their children these values, maybe the world won't not be in the state it is.

Give a cow some beer, get some good-tasting beef

Give a cow some beer, get some good-tasting beef

Interesting article, I highly recommend it.. (um the read not the beer (lol) Though Beer sounds good about now.

09 December, 2012

Work Day Grey

Xs in boxes that is my job,
Its a dishwater drab,  gun metal grey
Utterly boring work day

Ps and Fs in boxes too
That's all there is to it
Not much to do

Speeds and percentages
That's in there too
still not thrilling, but what can you do.

Nothing is perfect that's what they say
it's a dull job but at least I get paid.

20 November, 2012


Music is a powerful wonderful thing, it can make us remember the good times and bad, cry smile laugh and feel all the emotions associated with the first time we hear a song.
I don't know why, I am feeling so nostalgic lately, I would like to say it is because I am yearning for a simpler time, but those times I find myself thinking of are far from simple.
I find myself questioning every choice I have made in life, wondering if  I should have zagged when I zigged, or should have turned when I stayed the course.
There are many questions I will never have the answers for, and it hurts, but that's life I guess.. So I will live where I have before,  doing much the same that was done before, only older now, and think of the good times, which were there, but to far and to few to share.. I will wonder  why it couldn't have been better, and why I was the target of so much violence and anger, when I offered the softer things?
Now maybe you have come to realise that you can not be that way with people, but why did you learn that lesson at mine and our childrens expence?
Makes no difference I guess, you have moved on and I did too, just this horrid place,  and the fact that all the music I listen too I was introduced to by you.. At least we shared something right? (wasn't that Who Concert great, and who could forget the two times we saw Robert Plant?)
So here's to music and all the  good and bad memories that come with it.
Guess if I wasn't feeling  something, I would be dead, which sometimes I do feel that way.
But There is Music that also renews my spirit and makes me remember the MUCH better things , the promises of happier times, the promises of  the rose bush, of home and the "guy " and joy that is to be had.. The promise of a future like none other.
And perhaps this has taught me that the past is not something to be wallowed in, or regret, but to think of once in a while, as where a few mistakes were made,  other choices led to the great things of today and better things of tomorrow.
A simple , complicated, Cheers to the Future, and thanks to the past.

16 November, 2012

Observations on Disney World Part 1

Disney World in Florida is truly a fantastic and magical place; it lives up to all the hype (both negative and positive) These are a few of my observations, from my many many visits to the Wonderful World that is Disney.

Disney World is known as the happiest place on earth, and I can see why, it’s a dream come not only for the children, but Disneymaniacs  and it’s a shopaholics paradise, you can’t walk two feet without hitting some sort of gift shop.
Word to the wise, for the happiest place on earth you will hear an awful lot of crying and screaming. ( and sometimes not just from children) Truth be told there are an awful lot of sad , tired, misbehaved children in this magical paradise.


This is not the place for grouches, grinches, or grumps. If you are miserable sod at heart, a vacation at the Magic Kingdom (should actually be the Magic Empire if ya ask me, but they didn't and I guess that doesn't have the same ring to it) is not quite the right fit.

Here are a few things to determine if a trip to the Mouse  House is right for you.

1) Do you have a tolerance for  yelling and screaming children, who despite the fact the parents are right there still manage all sorts of mischief, from falling over to grabbing toys off shelves, to running into people without nary an apology.

2)Do you posses a strong immune system, as the selfsame children will be sneezing and coughing all over you,  and sad to say they will not be the only ones. Many adults will hack and sneeze all over your direction.

3) Do you have a high tolerance for rudeness. It's one thing for an over excited child to forget  how to say excuse me and please and thank you, and push past you ,run into you, smash into you or kick you, now flash forward to the adults! For some reason some adults find it perfectly acceptable to check their manners and common sense at the door.  You will often find  them  forgetting   how to say excuse me and please and thank you, and push past you ,run into you with the push chair and smash into you with the massive camera around their neck. And lets not forget pulling  any toy or merchandise out of your hand (this applies to either adult or child)

4) Can you process massive amounts of stimulation of all senses, causing near sensory overload.Are you willing to overdose on the sugary sweetness of just walking in the Magic Kingdom, the smell of caramel and candy permeate the place. If you are traveling with children can you harden your heart to not be suckered into buying everything  they want (or for that matter can you do the same for your self if not traveling with kiddies?) Are you are prepared to hear have a magical day at least 5 times an hour, and have a certain song stuck in your head for the rest of your natural existence?

5)  STAMINA! If you are not prepaid to walk miles and miles, stand in queue for great lengths, again this is not the place for you. Depending upon when you go, the weather can range from lovely to hellish! There are days in July through September that can reach well above 90 degrees F (add the walking and the standing in queue to that).

Disney is expensive, even on a package. Trinkets, toys, clothes, food water, and incidentals all add up. Make sure you are all stocked up and ready dish the dosh.

Check and re-check your list!  If you are 100% certain you can survive all of the above (and the weather if in summer through early autumn)  Congrats You've decided to take that epic journey to the magic that is Disney World!

(can you hear  the fan fare?  don't worry you soon will)

More tips coming soon.

13 November, 2012


by: Michael Yon

To the citizens of the United States of America from Her Sovereign Majesty Queen Elizabeth II

In light of your failure in recent years to nominate competent candidates for President of the USA and thus to govern yourselves, we hereby give notice of the revocation of your independence, effective immediately. (You should look up 'revocation' in the Oxford English Dictionary.)

Her Sovereign Majesty Queen Elizabeth II will resume monarchical duties over all states, commonwealths, and territories (except North Dakota, which she does not fancy).

Your new Prime Minister, David Cameron, will appoint a Governor for America without the need for further elections.

Congress and the Senate will be disbanded. A questionnaire may be circulated next year to determine whether any of you noticed.

To aid in the transition to a British Crown dependency, the following rules are introduced with immediate effect:


1. The letter 'U' will be reinstated in words such as 'colour,' 'favour,' 'labour' and 'neighbour.' Likewise, you will learn to spell 'doughnut' without skipping half the letters, and the suffix '-ize' will be replaced by the suffix '-ise.' Generally, you will be expected to raise your vocabulary to acceptable levels. (look up 'vocabulary').


2. Using the same twenty-seven words interspersed with filler noises such as ''like' and 'you know' is an unacceptable and inefficient form of communication. There is no such thing as U.S. English. We will let Microsoft know on your behalf. The Microsoft spell-checker will be adjusted to take into account the reinstated letter 'u'' and the elimination of '-ize.'


3. July 4th will no longer be celebrated as a holiday.


4. You will learn to resolve personal issues without using guns, lawyers, or therapists. The fact that you need so many lawyers and therapists shows that you're not quite ready to be independent. Guns should only be used for shooting grouse. If you can't sort things out without suing someone or speaking to a therapist, then you're not ready to shoot grouse.


5. Therefore, you will no longer be allowed to own or carry anything more dangerous than a vegetable peeler. Although a permit will be required if you wish to carry a vegetable peeler in public.


6. All intersections will be replaced with roundabouts, and you will start driving on the left side with immediate effect. At the same time, you will go metric with immediate effect and without the benefit of conversion tables. Both roundabouts and metrication will help you understand the British sense of humour.


7. The former USA will adopt UK prices on petrol (which you have been calling gasoline) of roughly $10/US gallon. Get used to it.


8. You will learn to make real chips. Those things you call French fries are not real chips, and those things you insist on calling potato chips are properly called crisps. Real chips are thick cut, fried in animal fat, and dressed not with catsup but with vinegar.


9. The cold, tasteless stuff you insist on calling beer is not actually beer at all. Henceforth, only proper British Bitter will be referred to as beer, and European brews of known and accepted provenance will be referred to as Lager. South African beer is also acceptable, as they are pound for pound the greatest sporting nation on earth and it can only be due to the beer. They are also part of the British Commonwealth - see what it did for them. American brands will be referred to as Near-Frozen Gnat's Urine, so that all can be sold without risk of further confusion.


10. Hollywood will be required occasionally to cast English actors as good guys. Hollywood will also be required to cast English actors to play English characters. Watching Andie Macdowell attempt English dialect in Four Weddings and a Funeral was an experience akin to having one's ears removed with a cheese grater.


11. You will cease playing American football. There is only one kind of proper football; you call it soccer. Those of you brave enough will, in time, be allowed to play rugby (which has some similarities to American football, but does not involve stopping for a rest every twenty seconds or wearing full kevlar body armour like a bunch of nancies).


12. Further, you will stop playing baseball. It is not reasonable to host an event called the World Series for a game which is not played outside of America. Since only 2.1% of you are aware there is a world beyond your borders, your error is understandable. You will learn cricket, and we will let you face the South Africans first to take the sting out of their deliveries.


13.. You must tell us who killed JFK. It's been driving us mad.


14. An internal revenue agent (i.e. tax collector) from Her Majesty's Government will be with you shortly to ensure the acquisition of all monies due (backdated to 1776).


15. Daily Tea Time begins promptly at 4 p.m. with proper cups, with saucers, and never mugs, with high quality biscuits (cookies) and cakes; plus strawberries (with cream) when in season.

God Save the Queen!

PS: Only share this with friends who have a good sense of humour (NOT humor)!

08 November, 2012

Sarcasm Picy

Life Lessons

becasue there's ALWAYS something, and it's usually just as bad if not worse than what happened in the first place!
Cause sods law, you'll find out what could be worse.
Becasue it can and often does.
 With all this there is one more never..
                       NEVER GIVE UP HOPE

I Need a Raise

 Money and I seem to disagree.. I don't know how this happened as I rather like money, but it seems it does not like me, it evades me, it's elusive, and runs like the rapids in the Colorado River, even on pay day.

I have this mysterious affliction that when I cash my pay check, suddenly the money disappears, it sprouts wings and flies away.
  Sure I put petrol in my car(which never seems to get to a full tank,  there is the food I buy so that the teenagers won't starve.. ah and the payment for said car, and the money pit that I live in which I now suspect is a black hole with gravitational forces sucking only money into it.. (it's a conspiracy)

Add that to the fact  I live in a "be thankful you work state." (and trust me I am thankful I work, but the pay cuts have cut way too deep . While I need to look for another job, for right now I would like to keep the one I have thank you very much.

I just wish there was some way to make more money, though it seems with all that has to be done it's never enough. I wonder if Bill Gates or Donald Trump ever feel they don't have enough?? 

I bet to have those types of money worries are fantastic!

"Oh No I only have 9 billion pounds, I need that 9 billion and 1..."
Money may not cure all problems, (and sorry to say Sir Paul it bought love fo you, (for a while any way))  It would cure the problems I have.. and as for buying happiness, it might not make you happy but it sure could buy that fantastic new car, house on the beach,(or where ever your ideal house happens to be) or other things needed and wanted.. (in my case I wouldn't have to chose between food and medication, and I need my medication.)
That’s a different subject, why medications have to be so damned expensive! If someone with insurance can get medications at a fraction of the cost, why should someone with no insurance and on the same meds have to pay so much?  55 dollars for a needed antibiotic, or blood pressure medication 75 dollars.. and the other meds and supplies YOUCH!  I should have been in pharmaceutical   research!
Hmmm I think I need a raise

Is life supposed to be this confusing?

How can you tell when something or someone is right, or the time for something is right?
Is it that butterfly feeling in the  stomach, the need to take a deep breath and swallow hard, as your heart pounds faster and  you get that  excited and curious feeling ? 

The unknown is a frightening and dark place at times, and yet exciting and very inviting, I want to take that step, but is it a void I enter, or an opportunity that I am going for.

28 October, 2012

What should never be, but already is

Never meant to be read, random thoughts in my head, thoughts of you and me, thoughts of where I'd like to be.
Concerts, songs, sing a longs, random dribble!
Feelings behind a damn, they burst and they ran like flood waters over me washing me away.
Random thoughts, strong feelings,  crying into the night, love hurts, and you don't even know,you have  no idea you hurt me so.. Because you just don't know, I will not tell you ,I will not speak,  you do not need to know I am so weak.
You do not need to feel the guilt, for you are not guilty, I let my heart run wild.  You did not encourage me, nor dissuade, you told the truth, as I bade.
And still I  sang, like the bird and made that confession, I know you heard.
Confused, my heart already bruised, I opened up to you, and welcomed anew.
Random thoughts, dreams and cares. Unique and shining, from  my thoughts you do not pass.
I said it once and it was true, you know that I love you, in all this time this feeling has not passed, it seems very much to last.  From my mind I can not chase, nor from my heart you erase.
Random thoughts, always of you, images and feelings so honest and true, I want to tell you again I love you,  but do I dare? I think you know, in fact I bet you do, I more than care.. I am in love with you.
Never meant to be read the random thoughts from my head, not so random feelings, left unsaid.

More Drival

Sleepless nights, I make no sense, helpless feelings, my mind reeling,            thoughts of you too distracting! Fear dominating, polite and placating.
 Haunted memories rich and vivid,  scars from pasts are still livid.  Shattered lives, scattered dreams, all too much, or so it seems.  New dealings, possible new feelings, connections made.
Images of you flash through my head, my body reacts,I close my eyes , I feel the heat of your embrace, body burning where your  fingers traced, that beautiful look upon your face , I am haunted, and I am longing,body aching, my heart breaking.
Fingers flying, eyes crying, soul seeking, for that connection that is there,  it is not gone,  nor forgotten, shake the past that binds you, so of  my love I can remind you.

Double Time

Random titles for random thoughts.
Random feelings, all out of sorts.
Thoughts of him and thoughts of me
thoughts of the way it might be.
Wanderings and wonderings of life good and bad,
Talking about the lives we once had, sharing our pasts,
Each moment together is a lesson learned, growing together,
This is what I yearn.
My heart for you does burn.


A tear stained face, a heavy sigh, did you mean to make cry?
Why do I fret so, I bring this pain upon myself, should I have kept my heart on the shelf?
Truth be told, I was not looking for what I found, and life is better when you're around.
Corny, crazy, emotional me, what ever you want is what I'll be.


Randomness Without a Name

Out of sight
Out of Mind
Out of bed, but not mine
Out of reason
Out of Rhyme
Out to lunch and out of time!

Too Much Time to Think..

Corny Rhymes, silly poems,
pour out my soul, expose my heart
When did you gain control,
When did I give it all away?
My thoughts humming
My emotions thrumming
Thoughts of you  floating free.
Missing you and missing me

Words Women Use

Saw this on line and had to re post.. It made me laugh, hope you laugh too.

1. FINE: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right, and you need to shut up!

2. FIVE MINUTES: If she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Don't be mad about this, it is the same 5 minutes you use when it's your turn to do something around the house.

3. NOTHING: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine (see #1).

4. GO AHEAD: This is a dare, not permission. DON'T DO IT!!

5. LOUD SIGH: This is not actually a word but a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing.(refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. THAT'S OKAY; This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. "That's okay"means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. THANKS: A woman is thanking you. Do not question or faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. WHATEVER: Is a woman's way of saying"%@&* you!"

9. DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT, I GOT IT: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking"WHAT'S WRONG"- ( for a womans response refer to #3.)

Things don't change Much

The insanity of it all.. I don't know when the good turned bad or indifferent, and the possibilities seemed lost.. but it seems that way for now..
The things we pray for are strange indeed, and sometimes you don't get what you want but what you need.  I NEED what I am praying for, but I also want it.. I mean who wouldn't want job security, to be healthy, happy and safe, to have their children be successful in life with their health and happiness as well
Simple  things really..

And sometimes it seems that living out your dreams or trying too,  just isn't as easy at it seems (believe me I have tried and it worked for a while, as I got the chance to live and work in my adopted homeland England,) but sadly it shattered along with so many other dreams.

Now I try to pick up the pieces of my fractured life to have new hopes and dreams, and find them slipping from my grasp as if my palms were greased.. And  though I continue to have hope, and I pray every day I wonder if the "mute" button is on.   Maybe it's time for this calm to go back in her shell..


 Things always have a way of turning out the way I expect... but then, I never expect much....(I read that In a Ziggy a few years back)
I understand what that means.. however, I guess when  you expect nothing, that's what you get.. and I have had enough nothing in my life to last a life time..
I want that something.. I don't expect it.. but I would like it..
So what now to give hope to the hopeless, are my prayers on mute again, a miracle happened before surely it can again... Right??


By Anonymous 
Current mood:understimulated

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me alone.

2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.

3. Its always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.

4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

5. Always remember that you're unique. Just like everyone else.

6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

7. If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments

8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

9. If at first you don't succeed, sky diving is probably not for you.

10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably a wise investment.

12. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

13. Some days you're the bug; some days you're the windshield.

14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.

16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.

17. Duct tape is like 'The Force'. It has a light side and a dark side, and it holds the universe together.

18. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
19. Experience is what you get, when you don't get what you want!

20. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

21. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.

20 October, 2012

Reality Bites but Dreams are Weirder

I have such bizarre dreams, I often wonder what goes in my head!

Once I dreamed I was getting ready to leave work when my chair arms grabbed me and pulled me down they would not let me leave(I worked at a hospital then as a registration clerk)  I was forced to register patients for days before I was allowed to leave.. When  woke up I was informed that I was actually asking questions and "typing" in my sleep.

I have had dreams where I have still lived in my old house, but was living somewhere else, I was a child but knew everything that I know now, and in the dream KNEW I wasn't really a child.

When I was a kid I used to dream about a man who beckoned to me from across  a large body of water, he was always a shadow, but he was never a threat,  he represented a certain thrill and a promise of "adventure" and other exciting things.I always felt safe when I dreamed of him. I truly believe  I met that man, the man of my dreams from across the water...

 I have dreamed of friends and coworkers dancing and singing with Big Bird because they were the entertainment on a cruise ship. I've had a "video game" dream where  my best friend had to make it to his  way through a maze and to his desk without getting stopped and avoiding obstacles  if he ran out of energy another co-worker would come and energize him  and if he ran into an obstacle he could call for help would block or take of what ever it was for a short time (and that person was me)so he could complete his journey was very vivid, and what was really odd it was in 8 bit, complete with sounds.

My latest dream was very odd indeed, first I was dreaming of my first pet, a calico cat named Shadow, she was playing with another cat, a sort of tan cat with brown paws called Smokey.. (I never had a cat nor knew a cat named Smokey)

Then the dream got very odd indeed, I was sort like a well an assistant/right hand person for a cult leader. I was a member of the cult as well, All the members referred to the leader as of all things ZUUL all the members wore these nondescript robes where you couldn't tell if the person was male or female, fat or thin.and the hoods masked the faces. All the uniforms where black with an odd design on it, All that is but the leader He wore a bright almost glowing yellow robe (similar in style and with the same logo/design.) All that as strange as it may be, was not what I found so bizarre because to me it strange, even though I was  close with the "Leader" of this bizarre cult I had to call him master..  And the odd thing was when I finally got to see who this master was , I was blown away by the fact it was my best friend.. I woke up and was like WTF??

So I ask again what is going on in my head!!

18 October, 2012


I remember you and the way you made me feel,
Your blue eyes, and crooked smile made my heart skip a beat.
Your voice, music to my ears, my name whispered on your lips
enticing, inviting and invigorating

I remember you, and how you intoxicated my soul ,
my last thought as I drifted to sleep, my first thought in the morning.
Your wicked humor and brilliant mind, never changing, always the same 
always adventurous, never tame.

I remember  that relaxed excited feeling, you sent shivers down my spine,
the look in your eyes as I sat at your feet, entranced , and yours completely,
Do with me what you will, masterful and in charge.

No expectations, long and deep conversations, souls, hearts and hands entwined I was yours, you were mine, I remember you.

Memories sometimes so vivid, I can hear your voice, feel your breath on my neck, your lips brushing mine, crushing with a hunger that only I could fill.. I wonder if you hunger still.


16 October, 2012


I have been thinking, which for me is a dangerous thing to do, as my mind wanders to the past, which I have been thinking far too much about, and have often been accused of being stuck in(a fact I will not dispute, and sadly must agree) I digress as usual, so here's my debate/dilemma/quandary..


With Christmas fast approaching, and money tight as usual, I find myself debating what little gadget or gizmo  would be the perfect gift for well MOI... 

I don't really want an iPhone, or Android phone or well a phone at all as I have a phone, sure it's a half wit with predictive text, photo messaging and GASP it makes and receives phone calls (who would have guessed a mobile could that), and here so many people think it's for  videos, and movies..oh well my phone also doubles for an MP3 player and it does have a camera, but that's about as smart as it gets.  

Back to the quandary...

Tablet, Kindle Fire(4G), Digital SLR Camera....   All are similarly priced, all would be great, but what would be the ultimate ??

I have a laptop, which is state of the art, it's top of the line (at least 2 years go it was) 
I don't want another PC just yet, as even though the Toshiba is 2 years old, it is still a fairly decent machine, it's been on several vacations with me, and sadly has a few battle scars, but it still works great (far better than my Dell Desk top did after a year..(NEVER let Dell Tech support help you, they only cock things up)
I wanted a Kindle Fire last year, but I didn't get it, I waited.. I wanted to see if a better one would come on the market, and lo and behold it did, the new Kindle Fire 4G, colour  and 4G and I already have an Amazon membership so free movies on a 7 inch screen...(Yeah??)

Next on the list is a Tablet, but what tablet??  I would love an iPad, as I am a long time Apple fan, before I was forced into using DOS(did I just give away my age? Does anyone remember DOS??)Windows PCs   I swore by  my Quadra..  There is the Nexus, the Element (which looks kinda neat as it's water proof)
I am confused on which to get, but I know that if I go for a the Kindle 4G at it's new price, might as well go for a full blown tablet.. but which one?

And lastly  a digital SLR camera, the brand I favour is a Canon, or perhaps the a Nikon, or Olympus. I love photography, it's a hobby of mine, everything I do, everywhere I go, I have some sort of photo.
 I am not sure which would be the best  for my needs. I love going to the airport and photographing planes.. (plane spotting as it were)  a camera with a good zoom lens (one that I wouldn't have to spend a fortune on the camera then the lens..) The lenses for some of these cameras YOUCH!! I currently have a Canon digital Camera and it takes AWSOME pics, but it's not an SLR and it's zoom is limited. I don't really want another Digital Video camera but if the SLR I do end up getting has a video function, so be it.

I've got some time think and drool over the latest and greatest,  I know I will be drooling and dreaming for a while, and the end result will most likely be some other gadget more affordable, like a pocket calculator, or maybe a plushy TARDIS with lights and sound... I maybe geeky, but I like the cute things too..

If I make a Pros & Cons list.. the biggest CON(no pun intended) would be the prices of the latest and greatest technology..  

The real problem that technology is evolution on steroids, and advances are made each and every day, so today's latest and greatest is tomorrow's antiquated and outdated table weight ( how long ago was it that everyone wanted an iPhone 4s and now there is an iPhone5??)

Was there really a point to this?  Nope just ramblings of a geek gal...

02 October, 2012

Nothing Ever Goes Away

Just a little tip, NEVER post anything on the internet you will regret, blogs, pictures videos, all have an amazingly never dying nor disappearing(100%)

29 September, 2012

A Token

I put you away for safe keeping, locked in side my heart, in  there you will remain, never will we part.
And yet I must go on, my life to carry on,
New places and new people, a chance to live a chance to love, he is a prayer answered from above, a blessing that I long to say to, though crazy , strange and true,  I am in love with you.

Can love be defined?

Emotions running wild, what people risk and give up in the name of love, how many countless songs singing praises, and it's wrongs, does it do it justice?
Love returned and shared, or halved and too much to bare, telling another of your soul and hearts desires, that it is they who light that fire and ignite the flame, but when if it's not returned you feel shame, broken and in pain...
Powerful emotions, that brings us together and tears us apart
Powerful, it makes strong men weak, and weak men strong, the greatest joy yet can cause the deepest heart ache and sorrow.
Love is more than just words, it's more than can be defined in the dictionary, it's more than just what is shared between family.
Love of life, of hearth and home, jobs, and places, people, love is transcending always moving and never ending, revolving and evolving, changing with tides, touching lives in different ways. Sometimes it goes sometimes it stays, and always sad when it strays, never the same more than once, different things to all of us.
tiresome and confounding, and yet still astounding and intense, sometimes it makes no sense.
A smile, a thought, a whisper and shout, a cry a laugh, a cascade of flowing emotions bundled together.
A special person that touches your soul, makes you feel more whole,
Like, love, hate, lust, excitement ,contentment,adventurous, pure, all rolled into one, and that feeling perhaps this time life has truly begun.


Useless people, where they should not be , always watching never have a moment free.
Useless time, better spent, learn to cope and vent
Useless thoughts go astray,Ideas unheard fade away, wistful wishes, dreams by day, minds unused wasting away.
Useless knowledge,  what a fool, read write, go to school.
Useless life, is that me, it is not what I want to be.


23 September, 2012

What I want Vs What I need

What I want is a man who will love me for who I am, and who I can be,
What I need is a man who can be a friend,lover, partner, playmate, soulmate, father figure for my children.
What I want is someone who smiles when he thinks of me, who cares for me as I care them
What I need is reassurance that my thoughts, feelings and emotions and ideas matter and are important  to them
What I want, someone who will not judge me, who will let me make my own choices,
What I need is someone to guide me, stand beside me and take pride in my accomplishments,
What I want is someone to have fun with, someone to be serious with,
What I need is someone to be myself with
What I want is someone who will talk to me, someone who will listen,
What I need is someone to hold me when I am feeling down,
What I want is someone to laugh and cry with, to share my thoughts, hopes and dreams with,
What I need is someone to share themselves with me,
What I want is to be needed
What I need is to be loved,
What I want is someone with personality, unique and mysterious, charming and true,
what I need.... is YOU.